in retrospect this has been a pretty ok summer, in comparison to last summer it has been amazing (my dad died last summer so anything is better than death in my book)
this past week has been amazing tho, i got to hang out with my friends, spend some real quality time with people and catch up on all the sleep that i have been depriving myself from because i am an idiot and don’t sleep. i got a B in my math class which brought up my gpa so thats good. but the best part of this week so far is that fact that i went shopping today and fit into a bunch of dresses that i know i wouldnt have been able to fit into in the beginning.
ya, i have been watching what i eat, i am actually ok with the way i look (well not really but i try to be ok with it. i dont look into mirrors much so there is that) i really like going to the gym but i also like eating french fries, bread and pasta so i try to make sure to space out what i eat, make sure there is enough protein and veggies and blah blah blah.
but i bought a dress today that was a 16, i havent been a 16 since i was in high school (im only a jr in college now but still). i have a visible collar bone, and i dont have to twist my body in a weird way to see it plus you can feel my sternum without having to push into my chest.
i dont want to be super thin, i just want to be able to shop in regular stores…